Problem of Grace

If anyone makes the assistance of grace depend on the humility or obedience of man and does not agree that it is a gift of grace itself that we are obedient and humble, he contradicts the Apostle who says, "What have you that you did not receive?" (1 Cor. 4:7), and, "But by the grace of God I am what I am" (1 Cor. 15:10). If anyone affirms that we can form any right opinion or make any right choice which relates to the salvation of eternal life, or that we can be saved by assent to the preaching of the gospel through our natural powers without the effectual work of the Holy Spirit, who makes all whom He calls gladly and willingly assent to and believe in the truth, he is led astray from the plain teaching of Scripture by exalting the natural ability of man, and does not understand the voice of God who says in the Gospel, "For apart from me you can do nothing" (John 15:5), and the word of the Apostle, "Not that we are competent of ourselves to claim anything as coming from us; our competence is from God" (2 Cor. 3:5).

Adapted from The Council of Orange (529 AD)

I would almost say that the problem of grace is more of a problem to those within Christianity than the problem of evil. The very act of God that enables our belief, assures our sanctification, and commands our obedience is also the very thing that is so hard to stomach. This is largely because of pride, combined with a distortion of the image of God in us. We want to assume that our agency enables us to follow the commands of God, and thereby lay hold of our salvation through our own merits. This often leads to a checklist-and-penance mentality: the more good things we do for God, the better off we are with him and if we're not doing things right now. . .it'll be okay because we're going to do even better things to make up for what we're not doing. The problem is with action, and who exactly is acting.

Action is a sticky subject, and hard to break down because it looks different in the Christian life. It is my firm belief that the doctrine of grace does not permit inaction on the part of the believer, but enables the believer to act. This action, however, in its strictest sense, does not come naturally from the person himself, but only from Christ, who being the "Author and perfecter of our faith" (Heb 12:2) assures that we will be like him (1 John 3:2; Romans 6:5). It is God, not man, who is always working (John 5:17). Through our union with Christ, we partake in the divine work, without ultimately doing anything. Grace leads us to our work: reconciliation (2 Corinthians 5:18), and loving one another (John 13:34-35, 1 John 4:11-12). This is as great of an apologetic as has ever been conceived.

Accepting this grace is the start. It is sufficient to work in our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9) and help us bear our afflictions. It enables us to enter into the place of rest (Heb 4) and gives us assurance that his yoke is light (Matthew 11:30), and his burden easy.

Thinking; not thinking

In thinking about my spiritual state lately, I've come to the conclusion my affections for spiritual things tend to get choked out by dwelling on things I don't often think about. It sounds rather ridiculous, but after a much needed weekend with my wife showed me, I've got some strange issues lurking around in the back of my head (like everyone else! ^_^).

I talked about how I don't often think about the past, and how it bothers me. There are other things that I think about how I don't think about them, but this is the main one. I think about this so much because I want to try and find the root of my lack of focus, but it ultimately becomes part of my lack of focus. It does make for decent poetry, and gives me fits of inspiration, but other than that, it's pretty pointless to think about why you don't often think about something too much.

Ugh. Just typing that sentence is annoying.

Anyway, the point of all this is all of this thinking keeps me from doing things I like to do or I say I want to do. I'm trying to find the button to turn it off, but it just makes it worse. This especially applies to spiritual things (like reading, prayer, talking with my wife), and other things (how people react to me, ect.).

This isn't something I have a ready answer to, so I'm not going to post a million proof texts about how I should be doing something else. I'm trying to work through it, be patient when God is silent, and try various things to break the cycle. Hopefully, a new job will be a part of this.